Can i celebrate my birthday with kor tonight? =X but i scare later my dad off wireless... since tmrw school.. I am sad leh... Tmrw school.. right on my birthday.. Mom.. not even say advanced birthday like she usually did.. nor my dad... he just walk pass by me... i realise.. i didnt talk much at home.. hais..
im stupid right? why should i cry ? is it because of the problems i have.. or.. is it because my birthday is on school day? :'( I dont know if i should be happier or not.. but... hais... I always be the sad Inaarah. Never smile.. never happier like everyone else..
maplestory game.. show me lots of different people.. different character.. i like to be in the guild.. they are so kind.. light.. the hyper boy.. always say grats when ppl level up.. sun.. our boss.. like to help ppl.. well.. now he ask for some money to do it.. because he also need earn money.. oxygen.. also nice.. childish.. emo.. hmm.. i dont knw.. never get so close with her... my own kor? hmm.. it always be him... i am happy to be with them.. hope i can go celebrate my bfdy with them.. Bye everyone..
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Sunday, 19 June 2011
Saturday, 18 June 2011
COUNTDOWN!
im SWEET SEVENTEEN ^_^ soon. :)
can't wait for it.............. :P
my new age, my new life, as i get old xD as near i am to death O.O"
EYNA!
Lol hi everyone~! zzz sorry. But i guess I am not going to continue what I post on the previous time. :D so lets talk about today story :P
so yeah today I wake so late. as usual holiday let me free a bit. as when school restart again, i have to wake up so early in the morning. ^^ so yeah, i straight away go mapling as i wake up. :P Then, I go to have breakfast. Mom cook some mee (i dont know what its name) then i go eat some porridge. :D The porridge dont have taste. o.o but mom said, its salty. So weird.
SO yeah, i am having my shower very late today. Not going to tell you what time. If that person know, he/she will also scold me for that. phew. i just hope my school life day end le and then i can entre poly or uni already. or study overseas. :D because, i dont like the school here. its not because not good quality. its good . but, i am having problem with meeting people. :D There is lot of 'so-called' bestfriend or friend :) so yeah, so hard to trust them. luckly i have brother :)
Well, he did ask me before.. why I never be so close with other people. and ... he said i always be on my own world. Actually I am too scared to go out. i like to be by my own self and be friend.. with people around me only. i scared if people is trying to bully me or hurt me. Since i am too dependent to my parents. =X but now,, i am not anymore. so.. i am scared.
i dont know why but my mom looks like she didnt like me. i regret to be born. i regret much. as no one can love me as how much i love them. start from family. i was being hurt and hit since i was kid. no justice too. i wont forget about those bad memories. its hurt me much. then as i enter school.. got friend who backstab me. got friend who grabbers. got friend who lie at me.. got friend who hurt me. got friend who talk behind me. thats make me unsafe and scared.
my previous life make me scared. i am not a good girl before. now.. i dont know. i am scared when any guy touch me. it remind me of my ex-boyfriend who touch me. theres no one ever touch me.. i mean guy of course.. bt when i let him hold my hand... then he break my heart.. i already lost trust to any guy.. or even believing them is so hard. its make me so hard to accept love or find it.
i know at first i like my kor. but to think back, since he didnt like me too... i think we just better be friend and brother and sister. i dont want to let him hurt. so , i think i will sacrifice for my friendship :) friends make me happier.. than being in love. when im in love, i think, i usually forget about my own friend. so yeah, i guess, to make it not happen, its better for me to be just friend with any guy.. :)
also i have to focus on my study :) and i will always keep my promise not to start relationship with anyone until my kor approve it ! :)
-loves everyone =)
so yeah today I wake so late. as usual holiday let me free a bit. as when school restart again, i have to wake up so early in the morning. ^^ so yeah, i straight away go mapling as i wake up. :P Then, I go to have breakfast. Mom cook some mee (i dont know what its name) then i go eat some porridge. :D The porridge dont have taste. o.o but mom said, its salty. So weird.
SO yeah, i am having my shower very late today. Not going to tell you what time. If that person know, he/she will also scold me for that. phew. i just hope my school life day end le and then i can entre poly or uni already. or study overseas. :D because, i dont like the school here. its not because not good quality. its good . but, i am having problem with meeting people. :D There is lot of 'so-called' bestfriend or friend :) so yeah, so hard to trust them. luckly i have brother :)
Well, he did ask me before.. why I never be so close with other people. and ... he said i always be on my own world. Actually I am too scared to go out. i like to be by my own self and be friend.. with people around me only. i scared if people is trying to bully me or hurt me. Since i am too dependent to my parents. =X but now,, i am not anymore. so.. i am scared.
i dont know why but my mom looks like she didnt like me. i regret to be born. i regret much. as no one can love me as how much i love them. start from family. i was being hurt and hit since i was kid. no justice too. i wont forget about those bad memories. its hurt me much. then as i enter school.. got friend who backstab me. got friend who grabbers. got friend who lie at me.. got friend who hurt me. got friend who talk behind me. thats make me unsafe and scared.
my previous life make me scared. i am not a good girl before. now.. i dont know. i am scared when any guy touch me. it remind me of my ex-boyfriend who touch me. theres no one ever touch me.. i mean guy of course.. bt when i let him hold my hand... then he break my heart.. i already lost trust to any guy.. or even believing them is so hard. its make me so hard to accept love or find it.
i know at first i like my kor. but to think back, since he didnt like me too... i think we just better be friend and brother and sister. i dont want to let him hurt. so , i think i will sacrifice for my friendship :) friends make me happier.. than being in love. when im in love, i think, i usually forget about my own friend. so yeah, i guess, to make it not happen, its better for me to be just friend with any guy.. :)
also i have to focus on my study :) and i will always keep my promise not to start relationship with anyone until my kor approve it ! :)
-loves everyone =)
Hi readers.
Hi everyone!
Its been quite a long I have not been updating my blog. Therefore here I am now. I usually explain for why I am not able to update right? So, I was kindly busy nowadays even though it is school holiday. After tomorrow, the school will start over again. =D Holiday is boring. I cant get rid of myself from studying because it is so nice to study. Let my brain not to work, will be so hard for me. That's why I went to play MapleStory since I am bored and yeah, y'know. :)
Yesterday, I went to my cousin engagement day. Uh, it was so tiring. Well, I met my classmate too. She is my cousin's cousin. :) So we are related. Oh yeah, back to the story. So yeah that morning, I was busying myself with game after just done-ing my Maths D homework. *sobs* Never say no homework for holiday. =) but, its good though. So yeah, I was talking with my friend, T. Until I forget, that afternoon I am going to attend that engagement day. Zzz. I run my self to shower! Haha!!!
Arrived le. Then its kinda disappointment at first because I almost didn't get my Hello Panda chocolate biscuit. Oh my god, if my kor found out, I will die. Haha! but don't worry, I didn't eat it *grin* be a good girl. So yeah, since my cousin is a boy, so we need to go to his 'so-called-fiance'. We have our own reason for that. :D
going to be continue.. im gaming.. :P
Its been quite a long I have not been updating my blog. Therefore here I am now. I usually explain for why I am not able to update right? So, I was kindly busy nowadays even though it is school holiday. After tomorrow, the school will start over again. =D Holiday is boring. I cant get rid of myself from studying because it is so nice to study. Let my brain not to work, will be so hard for me. That's why I went to play MapleStory since I am bored and yeah, y'know. :)
Yesterday, I went to my cousin engagement day. Uh, it was so tiring. Well, I met my classmate too. She is my cousin's cousin. :) So we are related. Oh yeah, back to the story. So yeah that morning, I was busying myself with game after just done-ing my Maths D homework. *sobs* Never say no homework for holiday. =) but, its good though. So yeah, I was talking with my friend, T. Until I forget, that afternoon I am going to attend that engagement day. Zzz. I run my self to shower! Haha!!!
Arrived le. Then its kinda disappointment at first because I almost didn't get my Hello Panda chocolate biscuit. Oh my god, if my kor found out, I will die. Haha! but don't worry, I didn't eat it *grin* be a good girl. So yeah, since my cousin is a boy, so we need to go to his 'so-called-fiance'. We have our own reason for that. :D
going to be continue.. im gaming.. :P
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Here is my composition :D
" A disappointment"
In our lives, disappointment usually occurs. We are human and it is not true when someone says there was nothing that made them feel disappointed. Disappointment makes us feel very miserable. A regret is a disappointment too. I've been through it lots of time. I get disappointed by my parents, siblings, relatives, friends and even strangers.
It was a blissful day and I met a young man. Actually, I was too afraid to talk to new people especially when the person was a guy and awfully good in speaking English. My English is very terrible and that is why I was timorous to talk with him. My heart was pounding very fast. However, he greeted me first and it made me feel serene. That was when I found out his name was Sly. We really did talk a lot on the first day we met, therefore we decided to meet again and exchanged contact numbers.
The next day we met, the weather was very unpleasant as the rain fell very heavy. He came, appearing in the pouring rain, with haste towards me under my umbrella. His hair was very wet and I could see that he was cold. I had a coat with me so I lent it to him. We walked together to get to a place where we could take shelter until the rain had stopped. Then, we finally found a place which was located near the 24-hour's shop.
"Do you want to have a cup of hot tea?" I asked him. His body was shaking and by then I was starting to worry if he really had a fever. I told him, I'd leave him for awhile to buy hot tea at the nearby shop. By the time I returned, I saw him sleeping on the bench and his nose was bleeding. I woke him up, panicking because I thought he was dead! As he woke up from his sleep, he told me to give him tissues and he acted like there nothing had happened. We spent our night together looking at the blinking stars as the rain stopped falling. By the end of our date, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Well, I accepted him.
Days after that, I went to his house to hang out. "Peep...peep..." He received a fax. It was a letter, but he did not let me see it. However, he told me that he had got a scholarship in Australia and he would be leaving the next day. To let him go was very poignant, but I had to because it was for his future. Then, the next day came, I went to take him to the airport and gave him a hug before he left. He told me, he promised to send me letter as soon as he arrived there. I could only stand and stifled tears watching him leaving.
Day after day there was still no sign. I was waiting for his letter. The tree outside my house started to lose its leaves. Every morning before leaving my house, I would check my post box hoping there would be a letter from him. A week after that, I was shocked that he finally sent a letter. It was not only a letter but with a parcel. I hurried to my room and opened it. It was his dairy with a letter. He wrote:
"I am sorry to lie to you but actually I didn't mean it. I went to Australia to have my last chance to stay alive. I have to take a therapy in Australia. I know that I never mention it to you. It was because I didn't want you to pity me. By the time you receive this, I am nowhere. Here, I did send you my dairy which I wrote from the first time I say you until my last breath. Also, I send you my health report. You once told me that you are the star in the darkness of night, but please listen to me. The stars are always shining and please don't let the clouds cover your eyes. I hope you understand what I mean."
My eyes were full of tears and my life was ruined like a melody on a piano which turns out of tune. I was hoping there was a bridge that could bring me back to the past again. I was so disappointed that he didn't tell me the truth. I can forgive him for doing that but he made me disappointed and let my life turn to dust. Since the time seemed disappear in dusky sunlight and smoke, his leaving made me scared to start any relationship with any other guy because I have lost my confidence and I was really disappointed to let him go. I just hope God will keep him in heaven, peacefully.
^^ so yeah, i hope you enjoy it. Love you all -Muacks!
In our lives, disappointment usually occurs. We are human and it is not true when someone says there was nothing that made them feel disappointed. Disappointment makes us feel very miserable. A regret is a disappointment too. I've been through it lots of time. I get disappointed by my parents, siblings, relatives, friends and even strangers.
It was a blissful day and I met a young man. Actually, I was too afraid to talk to new people especially when the person was a guy and awfully good in speaking English. My English is very terrible and that is why I was timorous to talk with him. My heart was pounding very fast. However, he greeted me first and it made me feel serene. That was when I found out his name was Sly. We really did talk a lot on the first day we met, therefore we decided to meet again and exchanged contact numbers.
The next day we met, the weather was very unpleasant as the rain fell very heavy. He came, appearing in the pouring rain, with haste towards me under my umbrella. His hair was very wet and I could see that he was cold. I had a coat with me so I lent it to him. We walked together to get to a place where we could take shelter until the rain had stopped. Then, we finally found a place which was located near the 24-hour's shop.
"Do you want to have a cup of hot tea?" I asked him. His body was shaking and by then I was starting to worry if he really had a fever. I told him, I'd leave him for awhile to buy hot tea at the nearby shop. By the time I returned, I saw him sleeping on the bench and his nose was bleeding. I woke him up, panicking because I thought he was dead! As he woke up from his sleep, he told me to give him tissues and he acted like there nothing had happened. We spent our night together looking at the blinking stars as the rain stopped falling. By the end of our date, he asked me to be his girlfriend. Well, I accepted him.
Days after that, I went to his house to hang out. "Peep...peep..." He received a fax. It was a letter, but he did not let me see it. However, he told me that he had got a scholarship in Australia and he would be leaving the next day. To let him go was very poignant, but I had to because it was for his future. Then, the next day came, I went to take him to the airport and gave him a hug before he left. He told me, he promised to send me letter as soon as he arrived there. I could only stand and stifled tears watching him leaving.
Day after day there was still no sign. I was waiting for his letter. The tree outside my house started to lose its leaves. Every morning before leaving my house, I would check my post box hoping there would be a letter from him. A week after that, I was shocked that he finally sent a letter. It was not only a letter but with a parcel. I hurried to my room and opened it. It was his dairy with a letter. He wrote:
"I am sorry to lie to you but actually I didn't mean it. I went to Australia to have my last chance to stay alive. I have to take a therapy in Australia. I know that I never mention it to you. It was because I didn't want you to pity me. By the time you receive this, I am nowhere. Here, I did send you my dairy which I wrote from the first time I say you until my last breath. Also, I send you my health report. You once told me that you are the star in the darkness of night, but please listen to me. The stars are always shining and please don't let the clouds cover your eyes. I hope you understand what I mean."
My eyes were full of tears and my life was ruined like a melody on a piano which turns out of tune. I was hoping there was a bridge that could bring me back to the past again. I was so disappointed that he didn't tell me the truth. I can forgive him for doing that but he made me disappointed and let my life turn to dust. Since the time seemed disappear in dusky sunlight and smoke, his leaving made me scared to start any relationship with any other guy because I have lost my confidence and I was really disappointed to let him go. I just hope God will keep him in heaven, peacefully.
^^ so yeah, i hope you enjoy it. Love you all -Muacks!
Hello
Hye everyone I'm sorry for the late update. :D I have been busy for my June O-level. :D Anyway how are you guys doing? ;D Sorry that my story in here isn't really interesting to listen. but, I am here to share my story. :DDDD So yeah.! I know right! I am so hyper today. I also don't know why. Er, actually I don't have anything to say but I would like to post one of my English language's composition. :D I scored 21/30. Please feel free to read. :D comments are allowed. Anyway any comments just see my email right over on the left side. and send me e-mail :D
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