Maybe.

There is a thing I scared to be happen in my life. I scared one day, I couldn't give birth. I have this problem on my pelvis area. Sometimes there is pus. I am scared if it something really dangerous in my life. According to website I check, most of it have different view but commonly said, if its fatal, it may cause a women can't give birth due to infertile. Also, they said, it may cause death.
I am wondering. There's lot of thing that happen in me. I got pain on my sternum area whenever I am stress. There's sometimes, when I am not stress, this pain also come attacking me. I felt very pain and couldn't move my body. As I move, the pain will more painful. There's one time in the past,  I was attacked by it. Very painful like I got a heart attack. I may not know how it feel when heart attack. But I slightly can't breath when I feel pain.
Third things I have is, usually my left part of waist, or maybe its abdomen? I have pain in there. The pain is not too frequent. I usually hold it with my hand when its pain, and try to move and do some stretch. However, when I felt it is hurt to do stretching, I won't do it. Then just let the pain gone by itself.
last thing I had is, I must eat rice everyday.this happened after I was got gastric years ago. Without eating rice in one day, can cause me pain in stomach. even though i have eat other than rice, still the pain won't go.


talking about the first one, that cause DEATH and NOT PREGNANT. makes me scared.
TIMOTHY was once asked me if i hide something from him. actually i don't want to hide it. but im still unsure about it. so i can't tell him till i get the correct result. i am sorry. if i really will die, i just hope timothy will always remember about me if i died. And makes sure he knows that he is my TRULY BEST FRIEND that I ever had. I put lot of trust on him. Hope you are success!


If my life is still long, but I can't pregnant, I will just take adoption. I want to be a mother and make him/her study smart till he/she success and makes us(as mom and dad) proud. I love you all.


I guess that's all for now. Good bye. Love.

Speak Chinese Day

大家好！
你今天怎么？我真的很抱歉，我已经没有更新我的博客，因为天前。我和我的学校功课和项目忙碌。
今天是很累了学校。当天上午，我们对生物药物介绍。我们的主要话题是“Heroin“。我们这样做是非常好，我想，我需要提高自己的发音和词汇。
除了这些东西，我得到了满足艺术类教室了。老师不希望使用图书馆，因为我们是有关性能，我们希望会议期间作出的效能，节惊喜。噢，老师要求我玩的效能，钢琴。我不是专业！我不喜欢那些玩钢琴家钢琴。所以，我应该采取提供？..
下午，我上了有氧一些练习。有些人选择了知府要求成为明天的慢跑的领导者。所有学生将参加明天。
希望我们将尽我们的性能最好。


sorry if broken

My new me? or is it just naturally me?

This few days, I come with a new life. I don't know if it was but I felt it was really different. Recently, I didn't talk a lot with my family, friends nor everyone. Yeah, maybe I talk to them but it just 5 times to 10. or  maybe, it could be lesser than that.


My kor nowadays is busy with his school work. I understand that. However, somehow I think it just a way to avoid me but, I shouldn't think like that. I believe at him. He is my kor and he needs time to be alone a.k.a without me. I am not his girlfriend therefore, I shouldn't put him in my cage. even though I miss talking to him, I should control myself.


I see people out there. Lot of things happened. People start new relationship, people breaking up, people dating, people alone, smile and laugh. I feels like, I am nothing. I don't know if broken up with my ex-boyfriend makes me didn't believe in love any more. I seems to be like, having nothing in my life. It just me and only me.


Yesterday CCA was very tiring. I come out with lot of sweats. I do none-stop playing. By the way, on our way to the Menglait's Complex, it was raining. So 4 of us were have to walk under the rain. Reach there, the court was full. So, other than fifah, we played at the side of the court. Because fifah join the other group to play. Then when they're done, 3 of us continue to play badminton at the court. And we win the match. so then the game continue. Then we were bored. So played with the Gang of Four. i didn't know, they're so pro. Oh yeah, the other boy, Alex, he was not deliberately hit me with the shuttlecock. Hais, Last time it was Ah wen now its Zhong Quan. >< why do they have to hit me ha?! ohkay. Forget those. Now I need some sleeeppp.


going to tuition later. bye-bye

Introduction

Hi everyone!

This is my new started story. I will start writing what I am doing for every daily life. Yet maybe, I will not be able to on line, but I will do the update the next time I had the free time. Actually it is not my first time to share about my story but now, I feel like I want to start a new one because my previous one, didn't reach to its achievements. I just hope everyone going to continue reading my story. I know it might be boring, but, this is my life. I would like to write all about my stories. There will be censored part. And some photo shot I've took or taken by other people that have connection with me.

Before I start anything, let me intro you guys with something.

I am Huahua (flower). I love xing xing (star).

Lot of confusion in my life.

Lot of stories.

Lot of  memories.

Yet, everything is learning.

I love music and most importantly,

I plays piano. I am not that pro but I am willing to learn it till I can play it professionally.

I love entertainment. 

Also, I love kids. They're cute, naughty, funny and yet they are awesome and adorable.

Sometimes, I am thinking to be a psychologist. I want to help those kids who needs me. And sometimes, I also want to be a business women. And yet, be a doctor. or, physicist. ;)

It's fun.

Hope you all wants to read my story and stay tune with it.

-with regards- Huahua